Disappearing...

Yesterday, I was goofing around with my camera trying to figure out the self-timer, what different settings do, etc.

When I went to review the pictures I had taken, I was freaked out when I came across this one, and I was reminded (once I stopped pinching myself to make sure I was still alive!) once again to never lose sight of who I am, and to continue to try and make a difference, no matter how small it may be.
These past 6 months have been very difficult, discouraging, frustrating, and humbling, not to mention the constant vacuum of self-worth. It has been hard to maintain a positive attitude and I have definitely had my "cry" days in which I have wished I could just disappear.

This picture, even though I realize is just a fluke, had a profound effect on me, and it really made me reflect on what is truly important in life. Things are just things. And although I really hate the thought of losing these "things" that mean so much to me, I am fully aware that they are just gifts I have been graced with to take care of for now. There are no guarantees. But the thing I realized is that I have been so lucky to have been given a chance to live in the moment and enjoy what I have today. Some people never get that chance.

I don't want to disappear. :-) I want to always be able to look back at where I have been and take note that I was there for a reason, and that perhaps I did make a small difference being there.